My Independence Day

Alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..

This morning, before my chemotherapy session (final day of 3rd cycle), my oncologist Dr. Ros Suzanna told me this lovely remark. Not a love remark okay! She's married with 3 sons!!hehehe..

"Zairy, this is your final day of chemo and there is no more chemotherapy session afterwards, insya-Allah. I'd discussed with Prof Fuad and since the progress is really showing terrific result, no need for the 4th cycle"

Just in case any doctor is in here..2nd opinion is most welcome..
My latest cancer markers
Beta-hCG 1.2 (Normal range < 5)
Alfa-Fetoprotein 2.77 (Normal range 0.00 ~ 6.72)
LDH 352 (Normal range 211 ~ 423)


Oh, what else I can say.. Alhamdulillah certainly not enough...
Although I failed to remember HIM most.Always with only little thought of HIM with the most of time HE gave me...
HE is still rewarding me this...Although I might not deserved this yet..
I hope I will never go astray, ever again..
Syukur ya-Allah, for giving me this test..


(Raihan - Damba CintaMU)
Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMU
Ku sering melanggar laranganMU
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Ku sering meninggalkan suruhanMU
Walau sedar aku milikMU

Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMU

Bilakah diri ini kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku KAU pimpinlah
Diri ini yang mendamba cintaMU
Aku lemah aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMU

Ku sering berjanji depanMU
Sering jua ku memungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMU
Kemudian ketawa semula

Bilakah diri ini kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku, kau pimpinlah diri ini
Yang mendamba cintaMU
Aku lemah aku jahil tanpa pimpinan dariMU
KAU Pengasih..KAU Penyayang..KAU Pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambaMU
Selangkahku kepadaMU seribu langkah KAU padaku

Tuhan diri ini tidak layak ke syurgaMU
Tapi tidak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMU

Ku takut kepadaMU
Ku harap jua padaMU
Moga ku kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti Rasul dan Sahabat

My special & million thanks go to my wife, my parents, siblings, my parents in-law, siblings in-law, doctors, nurses, families, relatives, friends, colleagues & everybody who are always giving me courage, supporting me by any means (financially / spiritually / psychologically etc), who are always there for me throughout this misery..turning every pain & hardship into pleasure & joy..
Allah bless you with Al-Jannah, Amin..