Wednesday, June 5, 2013



May I welcome back myself? Haha..

Since I decided to stop writing about my cancer last 2 years, I thought I will never write anything about this again.

However, very recently I accidentally shared my experience to 2 strangers.
One already completed her chemotherapy session & doing quite fine recovery.
Another is about to start the 'battle'.

And to win the battle, you must not enter it alone. Even a Private is as important as a General in wars!

That is why I am here, at your command Sir!!
I will join you, however small the role that I do.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

On My Birthday

Oh tidak...hari ini tiba jua....arghhhh.......
(hehe..ade ke org tak suka sambut birthday ek??)
Tapi paling best kalo every year time kite besday semua org cuti kan??
(kene tunggu jdk Agong....ahaks...)

Pepagi lagi my beloved wife dah prepare nasik lemak spesel
(Spesel pasal dimasak pada 21 March, otey*!!!)
* meminjam istilah anak sedara Pojan..dah tak pelat kot, dah jdk kak Long?!!
Teh tarik beb...Kalah mamak punye, tak caya tanya Deq An!!!

Bab hadiah ni yg terharu ni..
Nak sebut pun tak pandai sampai skrg ni...
Braun Buffel...lebih kurang camtu le...
Dah pesan Ummi takmo hadiah mahal2... bagi wajib la amik kan..
Thanks my dear....

Giler ah...dah beso2 pun dpt kek lagi...
Again, thanks my love
(korang layan je la kalo ade statement2 yg rase cam nak muntah ke..loya ke...)


OK, part ni agak kontroversi skt..
Wife aku pesan byk kali, kene mintak maaf kat kawan2 mahupun sedara mara yg membaca blog ini...
Serius...plan asal adalah meraikan Shifa yg pulang bercuti dari UK..
Kawan2 seper'chatting'an request buat gathering nak jumpa Shifa, Zariman &
their newly UK-born baby, Sarah Humayrah...
Maka aku pun dgn tak tahu malunye offer la umah aku yg solok ni
jdk venue rasmi kejohanan...

Tup2, Shifa tak dpt hadir..
Biasa la, baru blk oversea, sedara mara ramai lagi lom jumpe...

Almaklumlah...antara rakan & ahli keluarga, kene dahulukan yg lebih aula...
Omputih cakap prioritize...
(Yg ni kadang2 aku pun failed...
dulu time raya masa bujang selalu mak aku bising,
beraya umah org tak jumpe jalan balik umah sendiri!!!)

So, aku ubah le gathering tadi tu jdk acara potong kek...
Jadi, harap2 korang jgn tersalah anggap la ye..ini bukannye housewarming umah kitorang...

Sekadar menyampaikan hajat...
Susah nak jawab tu...lom ade budget...hehehe...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Baik & Buruk

Kebaikan itu adalah sesuatu yg kamu suka bilamana orang lain tahu tentang perkara itu..

Manakala keburukan itu adalah sesuatu yg kamu benci jika orang lain tahu tentangnya...

Kadang2 kite luangkan masa yg cukup banyak utk perkara2 yg tak sepatutnya..
kite ada masa utk bersukan, menonton TV, surfing internet etc...
hingga kite tiada masa utk mendengar sesuatu yg bole mendidik jiwa....

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Deadly Sins of Negative Thinking

Deadly Sins of Negative Thinking

1. I will be happy once I have _____ (or once I earn X).

Problem: If you think you can't be happy until you reach a certain point, or until you reach a certain income, or have a certain type of house or car or computer setup, you'll never be happy. That elusive goal is always just out of reach. Once we reach those goals, we are not satisfied — we want more.

Solution: Learn to be happy with what you have, where you are, and who you are, right at this moment. Happiness doesn't have to be some state that we want to get to eventually — it can be found right now. Learn to count your blessings, and see the positive in your situation. This might sound simplistic, but it works.

2. I wish I were as ____ as (a celebrity, friend, co-worker).

Problem: We'll never be as pretty, as talented, as rich, as sculpted, as cool, as everyone else. There will always be someone better, if you look hard enough. Therefore, if we compare ourselves to others like this, we will always pale, and will always fail, and will always feel bad about ourselves. This is no way to be happy.

Solution: Stop comparing yourself to others, and look instead at yourself — what are your strengths, your accomplishments, your successes, however small? What do you love about yourself? Learn to love who you are, right now, not who you want to become. There is good in each of us, love in each of us, and a wonderful human spirit in every one of us.

3. Seeing others becoming successful makes me jealous and resentful.

Problem: First, this assumes that only a small number of people can be successful. In truth, many, many people can be successful — in different ways.

Solution: Learn to admire the success of others, and learn from it, and be happy for them, by empathizing with them and understanding what it must be like to be them. And then turn away from them, and look at yourself — you can be successful too, in whatever you choose to do. And even more, you already are successful. Look not at those above you in the social ladder, but those below you — there are always millions of people worse off than you, people who couldn't even read this article or afford a computer. In that light, you are a huge success.

4. I am a miserable failure — I can't seem to do anything right.

Problem: Everyone is a failure, if you look at it in certain ways. Everyone has failed, many times, at different things. I have certainly failed so many times I cannot count them — and I continue to fail, daily. However, looking at your failures as failures only makes you feel bad about yourself. By thinking in this way, we will have a negative self-image and never move on from here.

Solution: See your successes and ignore your failures. Look back on your life, in the last month, or year, or 5 years. And try to remember your successes. If you have trouble with this, start documenting them — keep a success journal, either in a notebook or online. Document your success each day, or each week. When you look back at what you've accomplished, over a year, you will be amazed. It's an incredibly positive feeling.

5. I'm going to beat so-and-so no matter what — I'm better than him. And there's no way I'll help him succeed — he might beat me.

Problem: Competitiveness assumes that there is a small amount of gold to be had, and I need to get it before he does. It makes us into greedy, back-stabbing, hurtful people. We try to claw our way over people to get to success, because of our competitive feelings. For example, if a blogger wants to have more subscribers than another blogger, he may never link to or mention that other blogger. However, who is to say that my subscribers can't also be yours? People can read and subscribe to more than one blog.

Solution: Learn to see success as something that can be shared, and learn that if we help each other out, we can each have a better chance to be successful. Two people working towards a common goal are better than two people trying to beat each other up to get to that goal. There is more than enough success to go around. Learn to think in terms of abundance rather than scarcity.

6. Dammit! Why do these bad things always happen to me?

Problem: Bad things happen to everybody. If we dwell on them, they will frustrate us and bring us down.

Solution: See bad things as a part of the ebb and flow of life. Suffering is a part of the human condition — but it passes. All pain goes away, eventually. Meanwhile, don't let it hold you back. Don't dwell on bad things, but look forward towards something good in your future. And learn to take the bad things in stride, and learn from them. Bad things are actually opportunities to grow and learn and get stronger, in disguise.

7. You can't do anything right! Why can't you be like ____ ?

Problem: This can be said to your child or your subordinate or your sibling. The problem? Comparing two people, first of all, is always a fallacy. People are different, with different ways of doing things, different strengths and weaknesses, different human characteristics. If we were all the same, we'd be robots. Second, saying negative things like this to another person never helps the situation. It might make you feel better, and more powerful, but in truth, it hurts your relationship, it will actually make you feel negative, and it will certainly make the other person feel negative and more likely to continue negative behavior. Everyone loses.

Solution: Take the mistakes or bad behavior of others as an opportunity to teach. Show them how to do something. Second, praise them for their positive behavior, and encourage their success. Last, and most important, love them for who they are, and celebrate their differences.

8. Your work sucks. It's super lame. You are a moron and I hope you never reproduce.

Problem: I've actually gotten this comment before. It feels wonderful. However, let's look at it not from the perspective of the person receiving this kind of comment but from the perspective of the person giving it. How does saying something negative like this help you? I guess it might feel good to vent if you feel like your time has been wasted. But really, how much of your time has been wasted? A few minutes? And whose fault is that? The bloggers or yours? In truth, making negative comments just keeps you in a negative mindset. It's also not a good way to make friends.

Solution: Learn to offer constructive solutions, first of all. Instead of telling someone their blog sucks, or that a post is lame, offer some specific suggestions for improvement. Help them get better. If you are going to take the time to make a comment, make it worth your time. Second, learn to interact with people in a more positive way — it makes others feel good and it makes you feel better about yourself. And you can make some great friends this way. That's a good thing.

9. Insulting People Back

Problem: If someone insults you or angers you in some way, insulting them back and continuing your anger only transfers their problem to you. This person was probably having a bad day (or a bad year) and took it out on you for some reason. If you reciprocate, you are now having a bad day too. His problem has become yours. Not only that, but the cycle of insults can get worse and worse until it results in violence or other negative consequences — for both of you.

Solution: Let the insults or negative comments of others slide off you like Teflon. Don't let their problem become yours. In fact, try to understand their problem more — why would someone say something like that? What problems are they going through? Having a little empathy for someone not only makes you understand that their comment is not about you, but it can make you feel and act in a positive manner towards them — and make you feel better about yourself in the process.

10. I don't think I can do this — I don't have enough discipline. Maybe some other time.

Problem: If you don't think you can do something, you probably won't. Especially for the big stuff. Discipline has nothing to do with it — motivation and focus has everything to do with it. And if you put stuff off for "some other time", you'll never get it done. Negative thinking like this inhibits us from accomplishing anything.

Solution: Turn your thinking around: you can do this! You don't need discipline. Find ways to make yourself a success at your goal. If you fail, learn from your mistakes, and try again. Instead of putting a goal off for later, start now. And focus on one goal at a time, putting all of your energy into it, and getting as much help from others as you can. You can really move mountains if you start with positive thinking.

Ape2 Aje..

It has been 2 weeks since I last updated my weblog...

Selalu gak orang guna istilah dah bersawang...
Punye la 'lampi', baru aku perasan, ianye ade kene mengena dgn literal meaning of laman sesawang (website)
mahupun log sesawang..err..log dlm bahasa melayu ape??answer me..quick & now!!!!


Bile menulis blog....sama ada penulis akan bercerita tentang die, tentang org lain..mahupun berkenaan benda2 lain....

Aku kira, bile menulis tentang diri sendiri...maka perasaan riak, takabbur, megah diri, menunjuk serta sifat2 mazmumah yg lainnye pasti timbul..
Tapi jgn la fikirkan yg negatif..We are what we think, right??

Malahan, bile kite berkongsi sesuatu tentang kite, mungkin ade sesuatu yg dpt diambil iktibar oleh orang lain..

Bile menulis tentang orang lain pula, pasninye unsur2 mengumpat, keji mengeji, mudah utk dizahirkan....
Bacalah blog2 org2 politik & penyokong2 fanatik...tentu takkan jumpe sesuatu yg baik tentang org lain...semuanya salah kalo psl musuh & perfect belaka jika penyokong seseorang individu itu....

Tapi kite juga ada pilihan utk menulis kebaikan2 orang lain, dgn harapan dpt jadik panduan utk orang ramai...
Life is all about making choice...Good or bad...That's it...

Maka, bagus juga bile kite bercerita tentang benda2 lain, yg tak termasuk dlm 2 kategori2 yg di atas...

Tentu korang terfikir ape benda la yg aku melalut ni....

Just a little thought..
Kerana aku pernah diajukan soalan2 berkenaan..

Ape2 aje....hehehe

Saturday, February 27, 2010


Seorang colleague aku berbangsa India mengadu anaknye 'kena mata'..
sekarang demam2, hilang selera makan..

Lantas aku yg terpinga2 tanya balik kat dia...apebenda tu?

Aku tak sure apa istilah paling tepat..
Yang aku penah dengar, 'panahan mata'...
Lebih kurang sama la kot..
Lagipun, anaknye seorang yg sangat chubby..
Membuatkan setiap org yg berjumpe akan mencubit pipinya...

Tapi aku agak pelik gak, tak sangka non-Muslim pun ade kepercayaan yg cam gitu..

Aku tak pasti sama ada isu ni penah disebut dlm hadith Rasulullah ataupun tidak.
Yang aku pasti, penah jugak aku dengar beberapa ustaz yg mengulas topik ni.
Terbaru, oleh Ustaz Wan Sohor Bani Leman. Tentang seorang bayi di supermarket yg dikerumuni lantaran muka ala2 Pan-Asian.
Dgn kudrat Ilahi, bayi itu menemui ajalnya tidak lama dari situ akibat tercekik gula2..
Itulah contoh panahan mata, kata Ustaz.
Sebelum ni pun ade sorang ustaz, namanya Rashid dari Filipina (mengajar di Matric UIA PJ,terkenal kerana soalan2 cepu emasnye..mengajar subject Akhlak), pun mention benda yg hampir serupa.
Tapi tak pulak die jelaskan consequences daripada panahan mata ni. Sekadar menghilangkan perasaan dengki, pesan beliau.

Masya-Allah, comelnye budak ini..
Sekadar gambar hiasan. Tiada kene mengena dgn kisah di atas..hehehe

Dipendekkan cerita, setiap kali kita melihat sesuatu yg indah, cantik, baik, bagus, marvellous & seumpama dengannya,
maka mulakanlah dengan berkata.. "Masya-Allah"..
Tak kira sama ada kite berjumpa dgn org yg kita kenal mahupun tidak.
Bile melihat die berkereta baru, berkerjaya hebat, berharta menimbun, berumah besar, mempunyai anak2 yg comel, berketrampilan cantik hatta beristeri cun ataupun bersuami hensem...maka ucapkanlah
"Masya-Allah...cantik kereta ko ni"..sebagai contohnya..
Mulakan setiap ucapan itu dgn Masya-Allah, barulah diikuti dgn pujian menggunung & setinggi langit...

Segala pujian seharusnya disandarkan kepada Allah. Lagipun, tak semua pujian itu ikhlas dari hati.
Kadang2 sekadar penyedap mulut. Maka, dgn bersandarkan kepada Allah, kite menyetujui bahawa kepunyaan Allah lah segala nikmat2 tersebut.
Malah, pengucapan Masya-Allah juga dapat mengelakkan hati kite dari perasaan cemburu, sakit hati, dengki, mahupun iri hati dgn nikmat yg org lain ada...

Kita takut2 nikmat org yg kite puji itu, akibat panahan mata, akan mengakibatkan kemudaratan padanya..
Mudarat dlm pelbagai bentuk, boleh jadi kehilangan, kecurian, kemalangan, kesakitan dan sebagainya..
Nauzubillahi min zaa'lik..

Aku renung2 sejenak, susah jugak nak make sure setiap orang akan buat perkara yg sama..
Elok juga rasanya kite mulakan dgn diri kita terhadap segala nikmat2 yg Allah dah bagi pada kita..
Moga2 terlepas dari setiap sesuatu yg buruk.. Amin...

Ni Miyah punye helmet..Nak naik vroom..vroom (motosikal) :-)

P/S: Teringat cerita Ali Baba Bujang Lapuk..Masa Aziz Satar masuk gua ambik harta karun & pakai topi perang...
"Utk mempertahankan diri..."..hehehe....

Till then, wassalam....

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Nak ukur tahap iman kite??

Bagaimanakah perasaan kite tatkala berada di dalam majlis ilmu, atau ketika di dalam masjid..
mahupun majlis2 bermanfaat yg seumpamanya???

seperti burung di langit inikah??

atau ikan2 di air ini?

namun andai hati gelisah bak burung di sangkar

maka haruslah kite merenung..
mungkin hati ini sudah gelap & hitam dek hambatan dosa & nafsu..
sesuatu perlu dilakukan...kerana hidup ini sgt singkat,jika kite sedar hakikat sebenarnya..

aduh hati...bangunlah...basuhlah dgn air mata insaf & taubat...
harap2 masih belum terlambat....