Pre-Surgery : New Chapter of Life Ahead

14 Apr 08
It supposed to be Black 14, day that is named after the sacking of Anwar Ibrahim. It was black for me as well. It was 7.15pm when I dropped in surau @ Section 9, Shah Alam to perform Maghrib prayer. I felt stomach pain. When I reached home, a felt something amiss with my 'private part'. It was swelling!! No kidding...

15 Apr 08
7.30am - Business as usual. I briefed Misaka-san (Fin Controller) on new Vehicle Costing reports. Only then I went to panel clinic, Kump Medic. "It's not Hernia. Perhaps infection. You need to be referred to specialist" as said the doc on-duty. "Any antibiotic will do" he added.
12.30pm - With the intention to go back home & sleep (courtesy of MC from Doctor), I dropped by Damansara Specialist Hospital to take medicine, if any. To my surprise, Dr. Rajeen who attended me asked for permission to undergo minor surgery. It could be torsion (terbelit..don't laugh!I'm not that naughty & wild!!^&^%) or infection..which cannot be traced by ultrasound. Worst case scenario, it's a tumor..Nauzubillah..God-forbid...it never cross my mind..
WHAT?!!Minor surgery? Alamak!!!NOW?THERE? Allahuakbar..
Quickly I called my wife. Her response? You guess..
4.00pm - Prepared for Operation Theatre (OT)..with my uniform still on. Normally I will watch this scene from E.R, Greg's Anatomy or House series.But now, it's me with that gown.
Still can't believe my short visit ended this way..
5.00pm - Discharged from OT. Dizzy....
6.00pm - Dr.Rajeen came. "Zairy, it was not torsion, not infection..it could be tumor.."
Oh, even dizzier!!Astagfirullah...

16 Apr 08
9.00am - Ultrasound test..
Needless to say. Seeing is believing. After watching the screen with my own eyes, Dr.Yati the radiologist who performed the ultrasound that day confirming there is tumor with the size of 2.2cm x 1.8cm. Tears alone is not the solution. Surgery yes..
3.00pm - I signed the permission letter allowing me to be operated. Tomorrow at 12 pm.
Tomorrow Never Dies..Oh, I wish tomorrow will die..

17 Apr 08
Surgery Day - I can't really sleep last nite. I prayed hard, I thought hard. Why me?
The TV3 show "AL-Hidayah" that morning enlightened me somehow.
Actually, Allah tests us in order to:

• abolish (kifarah) the sins that we have


• reward us with good deeds (pahala)


• increase our Maqam (rank)
  

Among three, I believe that the first is the most applicable to me. You made mistakes, so you pay for it. As simple as that.

End of the day, my surgery was postponed as I requested more tests to be done. I went to Dr.Kamil Noordin, another urologist in that hospital who is more experienced for 2nd opinion.
5.00pm - CT Scan. Another new for me. I'm familiar with the SMART tunnel. But this tunnel?? Hmmm..even for free, next time I will shout NO!!You know why?
Imagine you being forced to drink a jug of tasteless water in 15 mins. Then your 'anus' being inserted a tube so that another jug of liquid pass through it. How about feeling your whole body is burnt. Not only free, you pay me RM100 also I say NO to CT scan. No, thanks.

18 Apr 08
10.00am - CT scan result is out. It was as scary as the moment I got my SPM's result. According to Dr.Kamil, although my scrotum was confirmed of having the cancer cell, the good news was that it is not spreading yet & my cancer is still in Stage 1. The cure rates of 97%. Alhamdulillah. Before I forget, the blood test also confirming that I am a cancer patient. The cancer markers (which I first heard this in House series) shows slightly above normal that make any doctors in this world to say I have cancer. (Yes, even Dr.House)

1. Beta-hCG 203 (normal is <5)
2. LDH 897 (normal is 211 - 423)
3. Alpha-fetoprotein 3.3 (normal <15)

So, the scoreboard says 2-1.. 2 won..

I would like to take this opportunities to thank everybody, my families & friends who visited me in hospital & home, sent me regards, sms, email and whatever means. I do appreciate it much & it is in my dearest prayers that everybody will be rewarded Al-Jannah, have a good life here & Hereafter, Amin..

21 Apr 08

D-Day..It was 1 month after my 27th birthday. At 12.00pm, I entered the OT with only one thing in my mind. Everything happen for a reason, only Allah knows why. I accepted this & any consequences in future, with the hope that this may bring me closer to Allah..

"From Allah we came & to Allah shall we return"

4.00pm - Alhamdulillah. The tumor had been totally removed. Syukur Ya-Allah. Here I am, still standing. May this test can really remind me for any wrongdoings I did before.