Pre-Surgery : New Chapter of Life Ahead

14 Apr 08
It supposed to be Black 14, day that is named after the sacking of Anwar Ibrahim. It was black for me as well. It was 7.15pm when I dropped in surau @ Section 9, Shah Alam to perform Maghrib prayer. I felt stomach pain. When I reached home, a felt something amiss with my 'private part'. It was swelling!! No kidding...

15 Apr 08
7.30am - Business as usual. I briefed Misaka-san (Fin Controller) on new Vehicle Costing reports. Only then I went to panel clinic, Kump Medic. "It's not Hernia. Perhaps infection. You need to be referred to specialist" as said the doc on-duty. "Any antibiotic will do" he added.
12.30pm - With the intention to go back home & sleep (courtesy of MC from Doctor), I dropped by Damansara Specialist Hospital to take medicine, if any. To my surprise, Dr. Rajeen who attended me asked for permission to undergo minor surgery. It could be torsion (terbelit..don't laugh!I'm not that naughty & wild!!^&^%) or infection..which cannot be traced by ultrasound. Worst case scenario, it's a tumor..Nauzubillah..God-forbid...it never cross my mind..
WHAT?!!Minor surgery? Alamak!!!NOW?THERE? Allahuakbar..
Quickly I called my wife. Her response? You guess..
4.00pm - Prepared for Operation Theatre (OT)..with my uniform still on. Normally I will watch this scene from E.R, Greg's Anatomy or House series.But now, it's me with that gown.
Still can't believe my short visit ended this way..
5.00pm - Discharged from OT. Dizzy....
6.00pm - Dr.Rajeen came. "Zairy, it was not torsion, not infection..it could be tumor.."
Oh, even dizzier!!Astagfirullah...

16 Apr 08
9.00am - Ultrasound test..
Needless to say. Seeing is believing. After watching the screen with my own eyes, Dr.Yati the radiologist who performed the ultrasound that day confirming there is tumor with the size of 2.2cm x 1.8cm. Tears alone is not the solution. Surgery yes..
3.00pm - I signed the permission letter allowing me to be operated. Tomorrow at 12 pm.
Tomorrow Never Dies..Oh, I wish tomorrow will die..

17 Apr 08
Surgery Day - I can't really sleep last nite. I prayed hard, I thought hard. Why me?
The TV3 show "AL-Hidayah" that morning enlightened me somehow.
Actually, Allah tests us in order to:

• abolish (kifarah) the sins that we have


• reward us with good deeds (pahala)


• increase our Maqam (rank)
  

Among three, I believe that the first is the most applicable to me. You made mistakes, so you pay for it. As simple as that.

End of the day, my surgery was postponed as I requested more tests to be done. I went to Dr.Kamil Noordin, another urologist in that hospital who is more experienced for 2nd opinion.
5.00pm - CT Scan. Another new for me. I'm familiar with the SMART tunnel. But this tunnel?? Hmmm..even for free, next time I will shout NO!!You know why?
Imagine you being forced to drink a jug of tasteless water in 15 mins. Then your 'anus' being inserted a tube so that another jug of liquid pass through it. How about feeling your whole body is burnt. Not only free, you pay me RM100 also I say NO to CT scan. No, thanks.

18 Apr 08
10.00am - CT scan result is out. It was as scary as the moment I got my SPM's result. According to Dr.Kamil, although my scrotum was confirmed of having the cancer cell, the good news was that it is not spreading yet & my cancer is still in Stage 1. The cure rates of 97%. Alhamdulillah. Before I forget, the blood test also confirming that I am a cancer patient. The cancer markers (which I first heard this in House series) shows slightly above normal that make any doctors in this world to say I have cancer. (Yes, even Dr.House)

1. Beta-hCG 203 (normal is <5)
2. LDH 897 (normal is 211 - 423)
3. Alpha-fetoprotein 3.3 (normal <15)

So, the scoreboard says 2-1.. 2 won..

I would like to take this opportunities to thank everybody, my families & friends who visited me in hospital & home, sent me regards, sms, email and whatever means. I do appreciate it much & it is in my dearest prayers that everybody will be rewarded Al-Jannah, have a good life here & Hereafter, Amin..

21 Apr 08

D-Day..It was 1 month after my 27th birthday. At 12.00pm, I entered the OT with only one thing in my mind. Everything happen for a reason, only Allah knows why. I accepted this & any consequences in future, with the hope that this may bring me closer to Allah..

"From Allah we came & to Allah shall we return"

4.00pm - Alhamdulillah. The tumor had been totally removed. Syukur Ya-Allah. Here I am, still standing. May this test can really remind me for any wrongdoings I did before.

Intro : Salam Perkenalan

Assalamualaikum..

Hi. My name is Mohd Zairy Mohd Tamam.
At home, I am called EE. Anyway, among friends..they know Ciki better than Zairy. (Got to know this when somebody missed the turn to my house during my wedding..just because signboard stated my real name..funny huh?!) I got this nickname when I was in Form 1. I just wonder how long will I be carrying this name as I am getting older and older.Can't really imagine if my daughter suddenly asks..why your friends call you Ciki, Abi?? It sounds like KFC mascot..Chicky!!

Hmm, I might consider changing my nick...suggestions, anybody??

It's not easy to be a young couple..

People are talking. Some of the concerns ; I am the eldest of 4, both my parents just retired from teaching, my wife & I just started working..family first..bla..bla...so what?? Even my parents don't bother (might be due to their longing, desire to have grandchildren asap..hihihi).
I still can help my family although I am married. Thanks anyway on the concern.

After taking every consideration, I'm getting married at the age of 25. Against all odds..
With the person I love, Nadiah Misman aka Nad who loves me because of who I am, whatever I am.

Marriage is no small decision for me to make. The most important thing was because of our long friendship, which was back to 1997 (when we were in the same class).

I believe in Allah..so I also believe in Qada & Qadar..so when the call to marry came to me, I am more than happy. Alhamdulillah..

Those my fellow single & available friends...don't hesitate when the call has come upon you..Those who have not, don't be sad. Allah knows best for you..It's just the matter of time..

Don't worry on expensive dowry (maskahwin) , wedding cost (hantaran, mak andam, invitations cards, souvenirs..the list is endless...). Allah will ease & show you the way.

Just spend on what you are capable of. Even your in-laws won't demand much as long as they can see sincerity in our proposal. Bet me...

Back to wedding preparations. Just be moderate. People are not actually talking bad on your wedding. Bad dressing, pelamin senget, ugly make-up..bla.bla...Even they are..so what?

It is closer to Allah's redha. Let's fear Allah rather than fear what those busybody about to say!!

Hi..this is my first baby, Amierah Humairah..
Alhamdulillah...Thanks to my wife Nad who fought her life to deliver Amierah into real world.

Being a father is very tough & challenging, I would say.
After what I experienced so far, it makes me realize how difficult to be a parent.

It really knocked me on my head...how ungrateful I was to my parent when I was a kid..being naughty & stubborn.

No wonder parents are being highly-regarded in Quran, for us to always pray for forgiveness of our parents, to be rewarded Al-Jannah (Paradise) in Hereafter.