Selamat Hari Lahir Anakku

Warkah buat Amierah
Setahun yg lalu, Ummi sedang bersabung nyawa melahirkanmu wahai Anakku.
Mudah-mudahan kamu tidak akan melupakan pengorbanan Ummimu..
Membesarlah kamu menjadi seorang muslimah yang taat pada Allah, kasih pada RasulNYA serta patuh kepada Abi & Ummi..Amin..

Coretan Amierah Humairah
Semalam Amierah sambut birthday kat taska. Cik Mah & Kak Ina belikan kek utk Amierah. Amierah kongsi kek dgn Firdaus..sebab Firdaus pun lahir bulan Jun jugak..
Ni la kek yang Amierah makan semalam..sedap tau!!Semalam Cik Mah masak mihun, buat donut..pastu Abi bawak otak2..Seronok bila kawan2 nyanyikan lagu 'Happy Birthday' ramai2. Tapi Amierah tak pandai nyanyi lagi.Cuma pandai tepuk tangan.
Sape yg nak makan kek, Abi kata kene la datang umah, nanti Abi belikan kek lain...tapi jangan lupa bawak hadiah sekali..hehehe..

Ni la Firdaus, kawan Amierah kat taska tu..hensem tak? Tapi Amierah lagi comel,kan?? Ummi yang cakap...hehehe..
Tapi Ummi pesan, wajah tak penting..yang penting hati kene selalu bersih. Abi pulak pesan, kene selalu buat baik kat orang. Baru la semua orang sayang kat Amierah nanti..
Insya-Allah, Amierah akan ingat pesan Abi & Ummi..

Hmm, kite nak pegi mana hari ni Abi? Takkan duduk umah je? Aritu Abi & Ummi pegi Menara KL tak bawak pun Amierah..hehehe. Takpe la, minyak dah mahal. Kite duduk umah je. Tapi Abi janji nak belikan kek kan?? Yahooo....

Yea..yea..Abi belikan Amierah kek..Siap ade bola sebijik. Mentang2 le mlm ni final EURO..(bole menang ke Spain tu Abi?? Amierah ngan Ummi support Germany, jgn marah...hehehe)







Banyak betul Abi tayang gambo hari ni. Tapi Abi cakap, bio la..birthday kan setahun sekali...
















Nyum..nyum...Alamak, apasal Abi tunjuk gambo Amierah tgh melahap ni?? Kantoi le Amierah kuat makan...







Ceh, Abi & Ummi pun nak enterframe gak ke?? Objection!! Tunggu le birthday Abi & Ummi..Hari ni kan birthday Amierah!!!
Hmm, ok la. Sebab Abi dah belikan kek & Ummi buatkan susu, objection over-ruled... hehehe..(mcm bahasa rasmi Ummi kat ofis je..)

Syukur...Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal...

Lance Armstrong & Me

Maybe not many of us who are familiar with a sportman by the name of Lance Armstrong. In brief, he was a world number one cyclist who won Tour de France more than 5 times, World Championships and many other tournaments.

Although I don't have any credentials in sport, one thing I share in common with him is our disease. Actually it was my oncologist who told me this story.

When I read more on his story, however, I can't be more grateful how lucky I am. His cancer already spread to lungs & abdomen, which means the cure rate is between 50%-85%. To quote what he said "..the best thing ever happened to me", Insya-Allah, I will fight for it, just like him.

You can read more on the disease & his inspiring story below:

1.Lance Armstrong and Testicular Cancer
2.Lance Armstrong Conquers Cancer

Here are some of the excerpt from the articles;

"Testicular exams should be a part of every young man's annual physical exam. Early detection increases the chances for cure. It is one of the many cancers that can actually be cured with very good long-term survival rates. Self-exams should be done each month from the age of 15 to 35 just as a woman would examine her breasts for breast cancer. A lump with or without pain should be brought to the attention of your physician for further work-up.

The Facts about Testicular Cancer:

1. Number one cancer killer among young men in their 20’s and 30’s.
2. More common cancer in white males than in blacks and Asians.
3. Men with history of undescended testicles (cryptorchidism) are at higher risk.
4. Early detection and treatment enacts a 90% cure."

Adab Tuan Rumah

Sejak dua menjak ni, alhamdulillah rumah tak putus2 dikunjungi kawan2 & sedara mara yg datang jenguk bertanya khabar..terima kasih buat semua & mintak maaf andai ade kekurangan di mana2.

Sebagai tuan rumah, Islam dah tunjukkan adab2 yg sempurna utk diamalkan. Namun, mungkin ada sebahagian adab2 yg kite tak perasan.

Mudah-mudahan dapat manfaat bersama..

Sejurus sahaja tetamu sampai, uruskanlah makanannya. Apa sahaja yang mudah di dapati dan disediakan uruskanlah segera, jika ada kemampuan untuk menyediakan makanan yang lebih mewah, uruskanlah kemudian.

Apabila tetamu datang, ada baiknya jika terlebih dahulu ditunjukkan kepadanya di mana tandas supaya dia tidak gelisah kalau tiba-tiba dia ada qadha hajat.

Beramah-mesralah terhadap tetamu dan penuhilah keperluan dan keselesaannya. Jamulah dengan makanan yang agak mewah (mengikut kemampuan anda) sekurang-kurangnya pada sesuatu ketika. Tetamu mempunyai hak terhadap tuan rumah selama 3 hari.

Janganlah keluar ke pekan mencari-cari sesuatu untuk tetamu. Apa sahaja yang sesuai yang terdapat, hidangkanlah untuk mereka. Janganlah terlampau formal sangat.

Tuan rumah janganlah terlalu mendesak tetamu supaya makan. Ini bertentangan dengan kebajikan tetamu.

Tuan rumah janganlah hanya menghidangkan makanan kepada tetamu kemudian biarkan begitu sahaja. Dia hendaklah tinggal di situ dan lihatlah apa-apa keperluan tetamu. Tatkala memerhatikan keadaan tetamu, tuan rumah janganlah merenung tajam ke arah tetamu, ataupun menjadikan tetamu menyedari bahawa dia sedang diperhatikan. Hendaklah tuan rumah sekali-sekali memandang sepintas lalu kalau-kalau tetamu memerlukan sesuatu.

Kadangkala orang merenung kepada tetamu ketika makan, melihat apa dan banyak mana yang dia makan. Tetamu tentu akan merasa kekok dengan kelakuan begini.

Tuan rumah janganlah memberati dirinya dengan sentiasa berada dekat tetamu. Biarkan tetamu dalam keadaan bebas. Biarkanlah tetamu makan sekehendaknya.

Jika perlu untuk menghidang makanan lagi, janganlah mengalihkan bekas (yang masih ada makanan) yang berada dihadapan tetamu. Bawalah makanan tambahan dengan bekas yang lain.

Apabila ada dua orang tetamu, layanilah mereka dengan adil.

Apabila tetamu akan meninggalkan kita, ikutilah dia sehingga ke pintu. Ini adalah sunnah.

Wallahua'lam

~source Permata Hati~

1998 ~ 2008

~Topik ini khusus utk kaki bola, maaf ye..~

1998, Stade de France
Sesape yg kaki bola sejak lahir, tentu korang masih ingat 2 gol yg Zidane sumbat masa final lwn Brazil (Perancis vs Brazil, 3-0)

Memori sepuluh tahun lepas tetiba terimbau tatkala menonton penalti Itali vs Sepanyol pagi tadi.
Ade satu kisah silam yg tak dpt dilupakan..

Masa tu aku Form 5, tgh sibuk2 nak SPM le katakan.
Tapi demam World Cup'98 time tu memang irresistible. Study,study jugak..bola pun layan beb!

Tup2 sehari dua sebelum 1st kick off, cikgu Math merangkap cikgu disiplin kitorang pegi 'simpan' TV kat dewan makan asrama yg tak penah terusik selama ni. Pergh....hangin le satu badan..Mengelabah masing2. Yang lawak & menyakitkan hati, cikgu tu siap janji akan record setiap game & tayang waktu riadah sebelah petang...apakah...
Tak thrilled langsung..

Dipendekkan ceta, kami pun berpakat ngan bdk2 pompuan pinjam TV extra asrama puteri. Aku tak berapa ingat sape mastermind or director, yg penting aku cuma bawak watak kecil, cover line kat surau tatkala "Ops World Cup" dilancarkan..
Modus operandi? Setiap hari, waktu antara Maghrib & Isya' akan ade aktiviti kat surau..Masa tu la operasi memindahkan tv tu berlangsung. Mujur le warden takde spot check time tu, kalo tak mengelabah gak la aku..

Sepanjang hari2 pertama (group stage), semua terkawal. Kalau cikgu Math kitorg tu bercerita pasal game live hari tu kat kelas, kitorang dgn selambanye buat2 tak tau result & tanya cikgu best ke tak game tu? Real sungguh la kitorang berlakon time tu..

Then the moment came..

Masa tu quarter-final Argentina vs England..
Beckham kene kad merah & game pulak seri sampai abis extra time...

Opss..lupa aku nak bagitau betapa seksanye nengok bola tapi takleh bersorak & menjerit..Kalo sorang terlepas jerit,masing2 dah mengelabah takut kantoi..hahaha..

So, bile dah penalti tu..waktu dah nak subuh..
Bile abis game, keadaan dah tak terkawal. Warden plak dah bersiap2 meronda nak kejut subuh..Maka korang paham2 je la ape yg berlaku..

Tribute pada geng2 (Taib, Tumen, Dent dll) yg bersama2 memerah idea & mengambil risiko memastikan liputan siaran langsung direalisasikan..Ahaks..
Special tribute buat 3 dara pingitan yg teruk dimarahi warden akibat bersubahat dgn kitorang..(Zaza, Enn & Nad..opss..mcm kenal?!!hehehe)

P/S: The ball is round & the pitch is uneven..May the best team wins..
(1998 aku support Spain tapi bungkus awal. This time, it is still Spain..hope they can break the jinx) :-)

It's Getting Tougher

Hai semua..

Seminggu terlantar dek penangan 2nd cycle. Tak sangka pulak makin mengganas ubat2 tu membunuh sel2 dalam badan sampai tak larat nak bangun..
Solat pun kene duduk,berdiri lama sikit kepala terus mcm nak pitam..
Alhamdulillah, semua kembali ok (sikit)

Memang kimoterapi ni pun, secara teorinya membunuh semua sel yang tak baik & sel yang baik,kemudian badan akan bina semula sel2 baru..

Ramai bertanya, kenapa teruk sgt kimo aku ni?Kan aku ni cuma stage 1..

To begin with, not all tumors are cancer..If you ever hear people underwent surgery & no chemotherapy or follow up treatment needed, means that is tumor.

Normally, the standard procedure is that they will do the biopsy (cell taken from the tumor) or surgery to remove the tumor completely. Biopsy or surgery will be decided by doctor, due to many factors: age, stage, type etc. Then the sample will be sent to the lab to identify the type of tumor..you are the lucky one if it is just a tumor..

Talking about cancer, each cancer has many types & characters. In my case, as far as testicular cancer is concerned, there are no less than 4 types. Guess what, mine is Embryonal Carcinoma, the most aggresive among others. According to doctor, the chemotherapy that I am given is just about the same as stage 2 or 3. No wonder..

Moving forward, I almost reach half the milestone..
Alhamdulillah..

1st cycle
12 May
13 May
14 May
20 May
27 May

2nd cycle
12 June
13 June
14 June
19 June
26 June

3rd cycle
3 July
4 July
5 July
10 July
17 July

4th cycle
24 July
25 July
26 July
31 July
7 August

The Man Next Bed

My sleep a bit disturbed last night. Although my session finished at 1.20am, still I cannot close my eyes. So was my wife. (Hopefully she is not caught napping in the office today..hehehe)

Pity to uncle Azli, the man who lies beside my bed. He is suffering lung cancer, stage 4. He was first diagnosed with the illness in 2004. After chemotherapy, his condition back to normal ever since. However, it came back just recently.

As a regular to oncology clinic in Damansara Hospital, I can see a lot of cancer patients facing the same problem whenever diagnosed at later stage (Stage 4). I guess that's why cancer is dubbed as silent killer. Most are detected when there are too late. Having said that, quite a number also who managed to escape the disease.

Successful recovery normally credited to the good treatment whether it is modern (chemotherapy, radiotherapy, nuclear etc) or alternative (herbs, homeopathy etc). What many fail to understand is that when the treatment didn't work the way it should, they blame the God.

Alhamdulillah, as Muslims where believe in Qada' & Qadar is a must, we will always back to Allah for any circumstances. I don't have to elaborate this further. Or else you will find an unqualified khatib giving a Khutbah Jumaat here.

Back to uncle Azli. He was coughing all night long. I repeat, all night long. It is not a normal cough. I can feel the pain of his whole body everytime he coughs. We pity him deeply. What I admired him, every cough will be followed by istigfar. Be strong uncle!! Definitely this is tarbiyah from Allah and it is priceless..

Wallahua'lam

2nd Cycle

Yesterday, I went to see my oncologist for follow up treatment. To refresh, my chemotherapy session on 2nd June last week was postponed due to low white blood cell count.

Alhamdulillah, yesterday's reading was 6.9 compared to 3.5 last week. The normal range is between 4.3 ~ 10.5. My only worry is that if the reading is still low & the session needs to be dragged again & again.

On top of that, another good news is that my cancer marker (B -hCG) is now 2. Just imagine, before the tumor was removed..the level is 203. Whereas the normal level should be lower that 5..Alhamdulillah..Segala puji hanya bagiMU Ya-Allah..

Today, I will be admitted to ward & proceed with my 2nd cycle of chemotherapy. This session consists of 3 days on the trot (Thursday, Friday & Saturday) followed by session on 18 & 25 June. Hmm, most likely I will miss Jumaat prayer this week. In term of medications, all will be similar as per 1st cycle.

My hairs count is currently between 500 ~ 1000. After this cycle..who can guess how many will still be standing?? :-)


Dear all, next is the main suspect..the culprit who is responsible for the loss of my hair. If you find any of them, please don't take it or you end up bald just like me. Don't say I never warn you..



Last but not least. When I read the following Quranic verse, quickly it reminds me the Greatness of Allah. With the tumor size of 4cm2, it is none compare with the whole universe HE created..

"Sesungguhnya penciptaan langit dan bumi lebih besar daripada penciptaan manusia akan tetapi kebanyakan manusia tidak mengetahui". Al-Mu'min :: 57

(Note: Surah Al-Mukmin is referred as Al-Ghafir in most of the Quran. Besides, this surah is also known as Al-Tawl)

Wallahua'lam